Paused...

I haven't been able to post for the past couple of days, because we made a super-fast trip to C.S. for our Niece's birthday...

We are about to go to Home Depot to get some tile to do our bathrooms, yay! I'll update with pictures of the party later.

Cornerstone....

... I'm going to start building mine. While I am usually kind, I think the normal kindness that I demonstrate might not be enough. Day two IS more challenging, but I am up for it.

I am working on finishing my sixth week of unemployment. Being at home is work in itself. Looking for a job is a job. I have reduced the days that the girls go to school to just Tuesday and Thursday, so that I may have at least a couple of days for interviews. Everyone's story is the same. I was walking through Walmart this morning on a grocery run, and a lady in Electronics said that the only reason she was working there was the fact that she was the product of a layoff. There is a strange kinship among us. It seems we are taking over the majority... or at least we are gravitating together in some odd way. I seem to run into a couple people every place that I go with a similar story as mine. What's scary is that you never know when it will hit. I think I crammed more groceries in my basket than anyone has ever accomplished in the history of grocery cramming. While I have great recruiters working with me and I have an awesome resume' and work history, I am worried about tomorrow. Will John still have his job? What is sad about that is he is doing Loss Mitigation... They have more work than they know what to do with. It is the right economy for that industry.

It was also funny, because I saw two different fire departments there doing their grocery shopping.... I so wanted to ask them if they had watched Fireproof. I am certain they would have thought that I was a lunatic, and they wouldn't have been far off. And even with all of this happening around me, I am so comforted. I still KNOW that we will be fine.

It is FAITH.

GRACE.

Prayer...

It makes you wonder if there is a divine reason for ALL of this. I looked for Fireproof. It was sold out. A Christian movie was sold out. I was blown away. And inspired.

One of these days we will be sitting at dinner and all of our kids will be in college. We will be sipping on margaritas and reflecting... and we will realize what we did right and what we did wrong. Maybe we will end up weathering this without a scar... or maybe they will run deep. But at least for us, I will be sure that our girls are oblivious to the state our nation is in right now. I don't want them to learn this lesson by watching us struggle, but by remembering that we spent more time at home doing cool family stuff than anything else. They don't need to know that the at home part is because of a recession. And, to me, I think it's bordering on depression. I really do. We don't have bread lines, but we have job lines.

I'll be back in the workforce soon. I will miss the fingerpainting on the carpet and walls. I will miss sleeping in with my girls till 8... I will feel guilty about that. But we will be better. We will come out of this stronger. I have faith.

And the greatest of these...

... is love.

Be patient.

Be willing to listen and learn, because you might remember the reason you married him...if you have forgotten. I haven't, but I think some might in this horrible economy. It seems that the two are polar, but they do a strange dance. They are magnetic and repellant... it depends upon the day.

Listen to your husband, and don't reciprocate anything negative. You know, make a promise to yourself to compliment him once a day.

Watch his face.

His reaction will tell you how you have been making him feel. If he flippantly says, "Thanks..".. then he doesn't believe your sincerity. If he looks shocked, then he believes you but can't believe that you complimented something of his. If he reciprocates, you are blessed...

Pray about day two, because it will get harder.

If you haven't figured out what I am reading.... I DARE YOU to try.

Day One.

I dare you.

Pray about it.

Happy Belated Valentine's Day!

So, I have to buy more storage, since I have maxed out every possible photo storage app on the web ;-) I will post updates, blogs and pictures as soon as I find a suitable site or upgrade to more storage today.

The Deception

Satan disguises himself as an angel of light. Therefore it is not surprising if his servants also disguise themselves as servants of righteousness (2 Corinthians 11:14, 15).

Boringly - Blah...

... is the only thing I think of when I see this background and layout...

SO - I am learning ASP.NET for that very reason. Well, several reasons.

First, because I'm a huge nerd.

Second, I am a huge nerd.

Third, (and there is not pattern here at all.. ), because I am the HUGEST nerd.

Ok, so you get the point. I am seriously going to create my own background and facelift up there ^ soon, so I won't have to keep copying canned code. In the nerd world, that literally means ready-made. It is the difference between buying your green beans in a can and having your own garden in your back yard. Well, I guess I want my own garden...

Follow?

If not, simply-stated, I want to learn a little programming to add to my "tool box" of sorts. With the layoff, I have extra time on my hands, of course, and I am going stir-crazy applying for jobs. Eventually, I want to be proficient enough to maybe do some freelance or side work building web pages. For now, I am learning and playing with it, and maybe I'll end up actually publishing something soon... we'll see...

As for the brood, here are a few pictures from the past week...

I averted a small crisis, when I found Daisy at the neighbor's. As that statement suggests, she had escaped the back yard during a potty break, and she was M.I.A. for a few hours. Kayden, however, is none the wiser, because she and John were in C.S. for John's Grandmother's memorial service. She passed last week. Kylee and I were here sick. Kylee ran a 104 by the time I got her her on Friday. I was sick, but I would have had no problem traveling. I fought her fever all Friday night and into Saturday. She still has green boogies oozing from her nose, but I checked her this morning, and her temp. was normal. We'll see how the day goes.

This was during one of her many baths to bring her fever down. You wouldn't have known it by the look on her face. She was just happy to play in the water.